August 7th 2012

Lord, I want to live out the sermon on the mount lifestyle. I want to live a lifestyle of fasting. I want to give out of my lack and not my surplus. I want to serve others in humility and not have a critical or judgmental spirit. I want to learn how to restrain my tongue and bless my enemies and not focus on defending myself. I want to pray and get deeper into your word. Lord, help me to sow to my spirit and not my flesh. My flesh is so strong sometimes. Give me strength to kill it and let my spirit man rise up and become stronger. Speak to me holy spirit. I will obey. Show me where you want me to go and what you want me to do. I will obey. Test me, try me, use me. I will obey. You can trust me god. I am your man. You can trust me with your gospel, with the destiny you have for me.

August 2, 2012

Lord, as I sit in this prayer room this morning, I feel you. I have been asking all this morning to fill me with your love so I can serve you more out of love and not out of duty. What do you say in return to me? You ask me to give 1200 dollars to Amanda and Daniel to help them do track 2. That was not the response I was looking for. I was expecting an overwhelming rush of your presence and a sensation of you touching my heart. You work in mysterious ways lord. Are you teaching me something here? I know you are speaking to me, almost to the point of tears. I felt you. It was almost like your touch and interaction with me was for the sole purpose of teaching me to respond in sacrificial giving. It was like you were saying,in order for me to fill your heart with more love, I must expand it more first. I must get your eyes of yourself and your self trust and then you have to trust and love me more because you have no self made resources to lean on. I don't know if this is what you are doing or not lord, these are just my thoughts. Whatever you are doing, don't stop. I want to be obedient and walk a sermon on the mount lifestyle. I trust you to provide for a trip to Thailand if this is what you want. I trust you to provide for my family while we itinerate. I trust you to give us a place to live. I trust you to take the care of our cars. I trust you to keep us healthy. Lord, all these things are nothing for you, so I give out of my lack and not my surplus. Keep on teaching me lord. Help me to hear and immediately be obedient.

August 1, 2012

Lord, I need your revelation. There are so many mysteries in your word that I want you to unveil and reveal to me. There is so much I want to know and understand. Show me the wondrous things in your word. Give me the treasure map to find the priceless gems and nuggets of truth that will revolutionize my heart. I want to know your heart, your thoughts, your feelings, your plans. Stir my heart. Awaken my passion and fan into flame my hunger for you. I am so dark lord, but you still call me lovely. Lord, I don't boast in anything other than I understand and know you.